sometimes i really wonder why do i write entries. like how did it get started off in the first place? its just basically inane ramblings! which not alot of people would understand. oh wells, perhaps this has become a place for me to rant and reflect whenever i do look back i guess? hahaha. i was out with bernie today and we were talking about her, and we all just felt it happened like not long ago, at most 2 months ago that 3 of us were kinda out together? which instead is, actually five months or smth? close to half a year already? hahaha. we were just so amazed how time passes by so fast. like a speed-train or smth travelling at 2343895996565miles/min. bleah. and also i was talking to zhengjiang during our walks, we were kinda like trying to figure out why teenage romances usually doesnt last. he said smth like, "i think when ppl used, absence makes the heart grow fonde r is utmost crap." which i totally agree. like the people u once were so close together doesnt even talk a single shit right now? grow fonder? think twice man. i really dont know why i still like to read the past entries of blahblahblah at times, when it has becomes smth ancient since its passed the expiry date for so long already. hahaha. and i wonder when will i get back to my true self. so please demon, get out of my body soon and let the angels invade okay? i cant seem to reason myself why i am continuing to be like this at times. haha, oh wells i shouldnt be really bothered about that actually. i MUST really try to end this. so fucking long, i am getting VERY impatient. very very very. aiyah i dont know what im talking about. bad night la. screw it.